| What the fucking hell is your problem? This is what? The 4th day in a row that you've turned me down? And you went out with someone else last night, fucking right after you turned me down, no less, even though it was oh i dont know, maybe the 3rd day in a row you broke your promise? I understand that shit happens sometimes, but this is just getting ridiculous. You make up this fucking stupid excuses too, like you don't have gas money. Well, I can drive. Oh but you need to drive your truck as much as possible. You're a moron. Whether you go out with me or not you still wont be driving anywhere, dumbass. If you're going to make those kinds of excuses, you might as well just say "I don't want to hang out with you." Period. It's that easy. Just tell me.
The worst part is that you make these dumbass excuses all week, after I already told you that this might be the last weekend I can hang out if i get hired on friday. "We'll go out tomorrow, you don't have school friday." Well good, you promise to go out, then change your mind 4 days in a row, and the whole time you're telling me we'll go out tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day, well guess what? Maybe I don't have that kind of time for you. I put off doing homework, and change my schedule around to accomodate you, and then you just assume that I have nothing going on and your schedule is the only thing that matters. I've already made enough sacrifices for you, and I didn't mind before, but forget it now. It's not worth my time if you're going to not even act like you want to see me.
Maybe I'm the biggest wimp in the world, but it really hurts me. Seriously. If you really don't want to hang out, just freaking tell me, okay? Because when I make all these sacrifices for you and put off doing homework to go out with you (which is a big deal when you think about how seriously im taking school now), and you go and just fucking make excuses the whole time and can't manage to do even one single thing for me, it makes your true colors show. So this is it. If you really want to hang out, tough shit. I wouldn't mind you just saying "I don't think I can hang out this week." At least then we can work out something that will work out for both of us, something that you can keep your word on. And I KNOW you know what it feels like when someone cancels on you because you got mad at me the one time I just got pissed off and didn't want to go out. You're so inconsiderate. How's that song go again? "You're calling too late to be gracious." I'm not making anymore sacrifices for you if you can't appreciate them. Fuck you.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.
And everyone's caught on to everything you do
And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let's end this call, and end this conversation.
Don't you see, don't you see, that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions"
and the "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.
So kiss me hard... 'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday, and this awkward kiss
that screams of other people's lips
will be of service to keeping you away.
post scriptum - zomg, kayla used dashboard confessional lyrics. Yes. Yes i did. And i love that song regardless of how embarassing it is.
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